Yesterday was #nationalsiblingday. It got me thinking of how much I wish I had a photo with them all together. How I wish they could all grow up together. My two living children wish these types of things too. They tell me how they wish they held him one more time. How they wish he [...]
I wrapped my hands around you, wanting nothing more than to protect you and keep you safe. I held you on my chest, your ear towards my heart, knowing full well you would never hear it beating from the outside. I breathed you in and kissed your head, your cheeks, your hands and your feet. [...]
2018 was an extreme roller coaster of a year. It was a year with magic and joy, so many laughs, so much love and the most beautiful memories made. It was also one with a some of our greatest struggles and difficulties we’ve ever had to face, a year of continued and new heartache and [...]
“Talking about stillbirth doesn’t make it happen”. What talking about stillbirth WILL do is reduce the isolation that parents and siblings so often painfully feel, compounding their grief. It WILL enable further research to be undertaken and preventative strategies and education to be effectively put in place and followed to reduce the staggering numbers. It [...]
It’s a devastating tragedy that your life was cut so short but YOU my darling, YOU were nothing but love and magic. How honoured we are to be your parents, How wonderful it was to care for and nurture you, How magical it was to feel you move and watch you grow, How grateful we [...]
Two years ago I first heard about pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I don’t know if it was the first time things were shared on Facebook, if it was because I was pregnant at the time or if there were more postings than ever before that made me notice. I remember seeing these posts [...]
For the last three weeks we’ve been on a ‘frangipani watch’ for Elliott’s tree. Each day we come out to see what new flowers have opened, excited to discover what shade of sunset each one is. Each day we put our faces to them and take deep breaths to take in their beautiful scent. Each [...]
In an attempt to settle the chaos in my head I’m in a state of household cleansing, organising and decluttering. I do this every year on some level but this year I’ve included the task of properly sorting everything I’ve ever kept from Emma and Ashton. Going through every one of those beautiful little baby [...]
When we talk about stillbirth it’s easy for people to distance themselves from the full extent of such a reality. Some people have the belief that a baby who never drew breath never lived. Some people think that their family ‘didn’t know’ them. The reality is, a stillborn baby DID live. Their heart beat, their [...]
Today I was building blocks with my niece who is a few months off from being 3. We were building a castle which she first told me was Goong Goong’s (grandfather’s) then told me, no it’s Por Por’s (grandmother’s) and then said “it’s Elliott’s castle”. A few minutes later she told me again “this is [...]
Elliott's Stardust 