Pregnancy and a infant Loss Remembrance Day

Today is international Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. It is a day I hope will one day be printed on calendars around the world for public recognition of the thousands and thousands of babies who didn’t get to stay, and support for the thousands and thousands of parents with hearts full of love for…

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Life was different last year

This came up on Pinterest recently when I was searching for party ideas for our oldest son. It hit me to the core. I have been avoiding organising his party as the task felt so overwhelming. Not just because my energy levels and passion are simply not what they were before losing Elliott, but also…

ACCEPTING NEW NORMAL

I never expected to lose a baby. When I did I didn't expect it to change nearly every corner of my life. I didn't expect to be constantly surprised (positively and negatively) by reactions or actions (or lack of) of others. I didn't expect that this idea of "new normal" really was just that... NEW.Suddenly…

Fathers Day…

Dear fathers of angels, Please know we are sending lots of love out to you especially tomorrow on Father's Day. You might be hurting (a lot) and have your struggles. You might miss your baby so much it's hard to breathe and wish with all your might that you could fix everything. There might be…

Dads, the forgotten grievers

Everyone expects a mother to be devastated after the loss of a baby. Fewer people realise that so many dads hurt just as much. They may not have carried their baby inside but that doesn't mean they love and miss them any less. Their babies were their future, their life, their heart, their child too.…

The Sound of Heartbreak

Last week I stumbled upon a matching frame and rattle to a music box we bought Elliott after he was born. They were so perfectly timed to find as I have been struggling with the thought of his birthday coming up in a couple of months. I desperately wanted to buy him something but I…

9 months on..

At the start you count in days, then weeks, finally moving to months. One day we'll even count in years. Unexpectedly at the 9 month mark I suddenly feel like I'm back to counting in weeks. This time in a countdown to the one year mark. In the last few weeks I've had lots of…