A few weeks after Elliott's birth we decided we wanted to do something to celebrate his life and extend the invitation. People had reached out to us with love and support, some asked to come see us but we were too fragile to face too many people in the first couple of weeks. We thought a little event would [...]
To our darling boy Elliott, Daddy and I wanted you so much, with every fibre of our being, every cell of our body. We loved you from the moment we made you. Every kick we felt, every heartbeat we heard.. it filled us with so much love and joy. We will continue to love you always with everything we have and with [...]
There's nothing more so than the a death of a loved one which makes you start wondering about the afterlife. It makes you start questioning everything and hoping with everything you have that there is something, and that something is peaceful and beautiful. Since Elliott I find myself looking for signs... After receiving news he [...]
I sat there on my hospital bed, my best friend tenderly holding our angel baby. She was smiling lovingly as she looked at him, then looked up and said "what are you going to say when someone asks you how many children do you have?" Oh god, I don't know... I've never had to think about [...]
After Elliott was born the nurses would gently ask if I needed any pain relief, even Panadol. But I didn’t and I hated that. I was in pain for many days after the births of my other two children but immediately after Elliott was born, the moment he came out, I felt no physical pain, there was nothing wrong with me. [...]
As a mum of a 7 year old daughter and 4 year old son, I know that parenting can sometimes be filled with guilt- Did I do this right? I know I certainly did that wrong... And now that we have an angel baby as well, I have found that you can't escape guilt when [...]
In the days and weeks after Elliott's funeral Ashton was so angry and aggressive. On the night of the funeral he started swinging his arms at me, trying to hit me. I picked him up and cuddled him and he cried "Why did YOU turn him into star dust? I want my brother! I want [...]
I'm sharing our story about our children to highlight that children can grieve a tremendous amount too. This grief they've shown has been one of the biggest 'shocks' we've had in our journey so far. We had no idea how much they would truly love their brother. We didn't realise that even though they will never watch [...]
Elliott's Stardust 