The sadness of my birthday…

It's my birthday soon... and I'm so very sad with such a heavy heart. Not because I'll be a year older, but because there is something so very huge missing from our lives.. because I can't celebrate with all my children. Last year I was so excited to turn 30. I couldn't wait. It was [...]

Love, pain, life and loss

This is love This is pain This is LIFE This is loss This is trying and wanting to protect you This is my heart expanding with more love and breaking at the same time. This is the rest of world not existing for that moment feeling you on my skin, marvelling at you and having [...]

The Shock… and trying to look beyond the pain

"One of the incredibly hard things to deal with after a pre-term loss of a baby is the unexpected nature of it....My husband looked at his facebook account...A pregnancy announcement followed by a death announcement in a space of 10 days with nothing in between on his wall. That’s the shock of it- we were [...]

When the due date is here but condolenses instead of congratulations have been made

Elliott's due date is next week. Soon, if not already, we should be holding our newborn baby in our arms safe and sound, kissing his chubby cheeks like his siblings had. I should be posting a happy announcement and receiving congratulations back. Instead life threw us a major curve ball. Instead it's already been 4 months since [...]